23 May Cosmic induction: you are still going through it!
Your cosmic induction has been very simple. From the day you have arrived you have been exposed to terminality of life. Preparations for departure have been all around you. Getting you a good schooling, family guidance, nurturance & protection – these came to you unasked for because you were meant to be secure. Secure from the uncertain juncture of departure.
During your induction you were also exposed to the natural world around you, hoping that you will engage with it and draw from its resources in terms of learning and living. What you chose to pick up however was the fear, uncertainty & doubt that you saw around you and not the abundant love that you were meant to uncover, from within and around.
During your induction you heard a voice more as a forewarning than as a guideline which said, “be yourself” however what you chose to listen to and abide by was “behave yourself”. You were also given a framework of right and wrong, good and bad; and in your assumed powerlessness and worthlessness adopted those guidelines as what you are meant to follow the rest of your life. Though socially and otherwise it was brought to your cognition that life is terminal, you chose to believe that you will never die. And in the process died even before you lived. Nowhere during your induction it was made known to you that life is living up others’ expectations, yet till date in whatever you do and wherever you are you are carrying the donkey on your back. During induction you were introduced to your feelings -the language of your soul. The idea was that when you experience a certain feeling you will be led to its origin and would thereby be able to be with a part of you which was seeking attention. Yet it became so difficult for you to, forget experience your feelings, be even aware of it.
Painful experiences, right from the time you were born were introduced as a part of the induction process making you realize that all pain is a pre-cursor to growth, yet your investment in pain-killers – those explicit as well as implicit – has grown ever since your induction into the cosmic life.
It is the first time during your cosmic induction that you got an inkling of what your roles and relationships could be. You realized the dependencies and also some of the co-dependencies – those with whom unknown to you, you started playing games. Again the early warnings and symptoms on the dashboard of pain would warn you to get out of them, yet fearful of rejection and abandonment you chose to snub the pain and go along flouting the norms of life inc. by playing those games incessantly. You were right at the beginning exposed to the wonder of having your senses reach out to the world, however you were also guided to reach within to watch the effects of these sensory experiences inside you.
Finally it was during induction that for the first time you were introduced to the magical alchemy of Love. The burst of energy, the transformational nature and the sense of oneness with the cosmic reality that Love brings in was intensely made to be experienced by you. In fact, it is during the induction that while the design was to get you to lead a life which is love-led, your love met its shadowy counterpart fear. And you got a hang of the dyadic reality of life on earth – a certain given playfulness which makes you run from love led reality to fear led reality and vice versa. Somewhere deep inside carrying the knowing that love is who you are.